'Til Death

They say there's a fine line between love and hate. There is. I fell in love with a monster. He used me. He destroyed me. He made a fool out of me. I didn't know it at the start. You never do. You think you have found the man of your dreams. You think nothing could break you apart. How wrong you are. I loved Marcus Tandem with everything that was me. To him, I was just a business deal, a way to keep something he'd worked hard for. He never had any intentions of returning my affections. He never wanted me in his life. But I wanted him in mine. When you fall in love with the devil, you expect to get burned. Marcus burned me. He consumed me. He devastated me. Somewhere inside, I knew he was no good. I just prayed having me in his life might be enough. I hold onto that small hope, that maybe, just maybe, somewhere deep down in his soul, he might love me too. Contains mature themes.

You know how it went for me. You know what he did. You know the fire he left inside my soul when he crushed me into a thousand tiny pieces. Since Marcus, my life has been a blur of emptiness. Since Marcus there has been nothing. I'm alone, my Mom is dwindling and I feel nothing but emptiness. I work long, I work hard, but why? There's no longer anything to fight for. I know I have to face him. I know I have to go back. To fix my life, I have to break my ties to him. Seeing Marcus again will destroy me, but it's time to finish this. I don't expect the bitter, twisted emotions I'll feel when I see him again, and when I lose everything once more, because of him, the only thing on my mind is revenge. But how do you hurt someone you still love so deeply? How can I still care for a monster? How can he still make me feel? Contains mature themes.