Calm and Chaos

Can a kiss really change everything? Having made a very successful film together, friends and actors, Nick and Alex have to decide whether to take on another joint venture or go their separate ways creatively. Then the perfect manuscript arrives, offering financial security and the opportunity to one day run their own production company. The film is Nick's dream, incorporating amazing effects, a wonderful script, a character every actor aspires to play with the director everyone's begging to work with. There's one snag: Nick and Alex will have to get rather personal on set. Nick has to refuse but much to his surprise, Alex isn't willing to take no for an answer. Nick eventually agrees, despite a nosy reporter and his brother turning against him. After all, it's just pretence. It's not as if he's gay and wants to make out with his friend... not until Alex kisses him. Then it really gets interesting.

When one man has the worst of reputations and believes any misfortune befalling him is deserved, it's hard to feel worthy of love. Can absolution arrive in three little words? Journalist Phillip Drake is beginning to doubt the career he's chosen, his motivation, his whole existence. When an assignment arises to trail up and coming, and coming out, actor Gary Caldwell he's well aware it's his duty to dig for dirt... and when Caldwell seems less than co-operative, Phillip half-convinces himself he'll be happy to do so. Gary has always been attracted to the reporter and finds it difficult to maintain a distance. Something is going on with Drake, not least of all the surprising revelation when Gary realises Drake is gay, and the attraction is mutual. After an intimate encounter, Drake disappears and Gary sets out to unravel a mystery that not only involves tracking down the reporter's whereabouts, but may also explain why Drake has done the things he has, why Drake harbours more than a little self-hate and more than emotional scars, and why the one thing Drake doesn't believe he deserves -- love -- is the one thing he's worthy of.