While writing this sequel to my first book, Manipulated Into Fear, There Is Always A Pattern, I couldn't understand how I was able to live the dark side of life while others perceived me as living a happy normal life. I was devastated at the thought of being unemployed now and allowing my relationship with an abuser to affect my family and me, and our lives. I began to realize that I, too, had traits, patterns and action plans, just like Rolf, and that there was always a pattern of abuse within families. Irrational thoughts entered my mind, and I began contemplating ending Rolf's life before he ended mine. In the same vein, if I didn't murder Rolf, I felt the need for me to take my own life to stop living in fear because of Rolf. I was hoping that there was a way for me to control my fear, when one day, I saw white roses and knew that they symbolized new beginnings. Several months later, I left to go on vacation to Germany and hoped that I would be able to leave my feelings of fear behind. Sometimes, one never knows what to expect on a trip. There were times when I felt like Cinderella, had quite an adventure, and wished that I had brought my weapon for protection. When I returned home, something much unexpected happened to me. I had a relationship with a man that seemed to be surreal. One can only continue to pray for white roses in a dream, and hope for a new beginning with their life. It doesn't always have to be a dream! (Five Stars) Foreword Clarion Review - Elizabeth Millard With this sequel, Dawnay broadens the focus from getting past her own hurt, shame, and victimization to helping others. Although Dawnay provides more narrative about her life after Rolf--writing the first book, traveling to Germany, tentatively starting a new relationship--she focuses on her inner journey from victim to victor. Dawnay's ability to detail and draw meaning for others from her painful experiences is strengthened by her straightforward, conversational writing style. Like a long letter from a friend, White Roses In A Dream strikes a personal, thoughtful tone. For those who suspect they may be dealing with abusive patterns in their own relationships, or seeing them among friends or family, Dawnay offers simple and powerful advice. Read the full review: https://www.forewordreviews.com/reviews/white-roses-in-a-dream/
