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What I Lost

Alexandra Ballard
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Pages
288
Year
2017
Language
English
Publisher
Farrar, Straus and Giroux (BYR)

About

What sixteen-year-old Elizabeth has lost so far: forty pounds, four jean sizes, a boyfriend, and her peace of mind. As a result, she's finally a size zero. She's also the newest resident at Wallingfield, a treatment center for girls like her-girls with eating disorders. Elizabeth is determined to endure the program so she can go back home, where she plans to start restricting her food intake again.

She's pretty sure her mom, who has her own size-zero obsession, needs treatment as much as she does. Maybe even more. Then Elizabeth begins receiving mysterious packages. Are they from her ex-boyfriend, a secret admirer, or someone playing a cruel trick?

This eloquent debut novel rings with authenticity as it follows Elizabeth's journey to taking an active role in her recovery, hoping to get back all that she lost.

Related Subjects

  • Eating Disorders & Body Image
  • Social Themes
  • Young Adult Fiction
  • Self-Esteem & Self-Reliance
  • Friendship

Reviews

"Vivid descriptions of the panic and visceral disgust she experiences at the prospect of eating juxtapose well with the account of her progress as she begins to confront just how profound the effect her mother's disordered relationship with food and body image has had on her...Readers will root for the novel's likable main character and gain some understanding of the complexity of her illness at t
Kirkus
"Through Elizabeth's painful uphill battle, newcomer Ballard skillfully illustrates that although unhealthy eating habits may start as a choice, an eating disorder is a complicated illness that cannot be battled without support and vigilance."
Publishers Weekly
"This debut novel offers readers an authentic and in-depth look at eating disorders...Elizabeth is a sympathetic narrator, relatable even in the midst of her turmoil...The book doesn't sugarcoat and portrays with steady clarity and empathy the characters' struggles. VERDICT Filled with honesty, heart, and unexpected humor, this story is sure to please a multitude of readers."
School Library Journal

Extended Details

  • ATOSGrade Level 4.1
  • Interest LevelsUG

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