Ten Degrees Backward

And I cannot help seeing that - through no fault of my own - a disappointment I, his only son, must have been to him. I say advisedly, through no fault of my own, though I have faults enough, Heaven knows! The great tragedy of my life came through my own folly, as I now at last realise, but I cannot see that the disappointment I caused my father was my own doing, though the far greater disappointment I caused to one dearer than my father most undoubtedly was. But, of that later.