Silent Riot

Silent Riot

I was only five and six
You had to take away
My only innocence
There was nothing I could say

Nothing I could do
Absolutely nothing
You didn’t care
I was never something

I was your toy
I was your little girl
Hands were always on me
Everything changed in a swirl

Once I was careless
Once I was free
Once I was innocent
Once I was me

Anger pulses in my veins
Hurt pumps my heart
Revenge is my only thought
Hate is my art

Your hands were always on me
I didn’t understand
That you were using me

I never got a lending hand

I never got an ear
I never got an eye
I never had a voice
Her hands are nigh

I didn’t know what to do
So I kept quiet
Holding everything in
I was a silent riot

My dad was working
My mom was a drunk
I had no one to go to
My being sunk

I was only five and six
You put down your crucifix
Just to destroy my innocence
Anything left of a childhood

Once I was vulnerable
Once I was happy
Once I was innocent
But you had to change that

You couldn’t let me go
I was your treasure
You had to continue
I was your hidden pleasure

You could never let me go
Not without a mark
I had to be your property

All light was lost

I was confused
About the world and life
You knew this
I was on the edge of a knife

You were supposed to be the adult
I was the victim
You’re a female
It was supposed to be him

With the grief at home
And at school
I began to give up
I began to drown in the pool

I needed an escape
But I was lost
No one would help me
Freezing in the frost

I was only five and six
You threw away your crucifix
Lust to end a childhood
Nothing left to this innocence

Now I see
The c**t you are
But I still hold a grudge
Your hands went too far

I can’t forgive and forget
For what you did
My hear is blackened

By the touch of your bid

You’re the monster that created me
You’re the reason I hate me
You’re why I have a scorched soul
Just die and let me be

I was only five and six
You burned your crucifix
Loved to desecrate innocence