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Belonging is a performance before it is a fact.
I learned this on ships, in university corridors, in rooms that did not expect me. I learned to produce the right version of myself for every room - and I was good at it. By the time I finished my doctorate, I could not locate the line between who I was and who I had learned to be.
I tried to fill the gap with degrees, with traditions, with twenty minutes on a cushion every morning. None of it reached what needed reaching.
This book is about what finally did.
Nothing in the Way moves between memoir and practice: between the life of a man who searched across oceans and traditions and ordinary afternoons, and ten verses of Śaṅkara's Aparokṣānubhūti, a twelfth-century teaching on how to prepare for what you actually are when the performing stops. Each verse arrives with a scene from the author's life, a contemplation, and a meditation. Not a path to a destination. This is a clearing of what has grown over the one you have always been standing on.
For the reader past the beginning.
For the reader who has run out of the next thing to try.
For the reader who suspects the answer is closer than any of the searching.
I learned this on ships, in university corridors, in rooms that did not expect me. I learned to produce the right version of myself for every room - and I was good at it. By the time I finished my doctorate, I could not locate the line between who I was and who I had learned to be.
I tried to fill the gap with degrees, with traditions, with twenty minutes on a cushion every morning. None of it reached what needed reaching.
This book is about what finally did.
Nothing in the Way moves between memoir and practice: between the life of a man who searched across oceans and traditions and ordinary afternoons, and ten verses of Śaṅkara's Aparokṣānubhūti, a twelfth-century teaching on how to prepare for what you actually are when the performing stops. Each verse arrives with a scene from the author's life, a contemplation, and a meditation. Not a path to a destination. This is a clearing of what has grown over the one you have always been standing on.
For the reader past the beginning.
For the reader who has run out of the next thing to try.
For the reader who suspects the answer is closer than any of the searching.