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This book is about my novel, North Window.I wrote it between 2010 and 2015.I have written four novels in total and North Window is my third.I had a job, family, and a house. My life couldn't seem more ordinary. I had been writing stories since my early teens and thought nothing of it.This story seemed to bear no relevance to my life at all. An insomniac leads a double life. By day, he is drafting contracts between corporations; by night, he pays to watch an apartment window opposite.A desperate single mother finds herself in that apartment. Why does she have a bad feeling the moment she steps foot inside? Why does the window bring unease as the shadows grow long?A year after completing this novel, I learned something truly terrible about myself. Unbeknown to me, clues to this truth had leaked into my stories, paintings, poems and this novel.I have since discovered another novel beneath this one; two novels in one. How did that happen?I could not see this under-novel at all and is nothing like the one I believed I was writing. This double-storyline goes back to my early children's mysteries.As this is a true story, I have used my diaries as part of this account. I have provided illustrations to convey the intensity of my inner world. Madeleine Watson lives in the UK and writes under a pseudonym.At the age of 51, she discovered she had been repeatedly raped at the age of 3 by an uncle who shared her toddlerhood home.During oblivion, she kept a diary, wrote children's mysteries, novels and short stories. She also went to art school for 5 years. Unbeknown to her, clues to her horrific toddlerhood had seeped into her creations.How she finally learned the truth is described in her books along with further revelations. Having lived through this experience, she is able to describe what life has been like for someone whose toddlerhood has been brutalised prior to the dawning of her conscious awareness.