This book is a series of letters to the children I aborted when I was seventeen. These letters detail the events just prior to becoming pregnant by rape and the horrendous events that unfolded as a result of my decision to abort. The letters begin with my addressing them as blobs because that is how the professionals referred to them at the time. They evolve into my understanding the reasons why I was depressed, suicidal, involved in an abusive relationship, and estranged from my life. With the love and grace that I found in my Savior, Jesus Christ, I was able to look at the abortions honestly and come to terms with the fact that they were not blobs at all, but instead my precious children. This truth brought healing and hope in the light of Gods loving kindness.