EBOOK
About
I am not an author, but I’ve kept a journal for most of my life. When I was in my teen years, I wrote in my journal but also wished I could know the thoughts and read the journal of another teenager. I thought I was the only one feeling what I was feeling. My first intention with this book is to provide my diaries as a written display that the stages one goes through as a teenager, while unique, are also relatable. My second intention is self-serving. I put this project together to better understand myself, and I would encourage others to do the same.
You may now come on the journey of my life, starting with my early adolescence. Follow me as I change my desired occupation more times than I can count, get harassed for my sexual experimentation, search for God, and experience many other hills and valleys along my pathway. This book is about one-quarter of my journal. I took out what I thought was repetitive or, rather, me just blabbering on and certain secrets about people that I wouldn’t want revealed. I also combined some entries to avoid repetition, and all of the names in this book are fictitious. Other than that, everything is real and raw.
Because of these journals, I clearly remember being a teenager. I felt alone even though there were people all around me. I felt completely misunderstood. I constantly felt betrayed. I felt awkwardly sexual. And I felt full of a slight rage I couldn’t understand. I felt I had a lot to say, with thousands of questions that no one cared to answer. I wish someone had told me that it would get easier. Everyone told me life gets tougher with responsibilities. I believe that people don’t truly remember what it was like to be a teenager. Life is more stressful now, but do people truly remember what it was like to feel as powerless as they did when they were teenagers? I remember. It’s hard not to with my journals.
I am now in my mid-twenties and going back through my life to try and learn more about myself. This book presents my journey thus far.
You may now come on the journey of my life, starting with my early adolescence. Follow me as I change my desired occupation more times than I can count, get harassed for my sexual experimentation, search for God, and experience many other hills and valleys along my pathway. This book is about one-quarter of my journal. I took out what I thought was repetitive or, rather, me just blabbering on and certain secrets about people that I wouldn’t want revealed. I also combined some entries to avoid repetition, and all of the names in this book are fictitious. Other than that, everything is real and raw.
Because of these journals, I clearly remember being a teenager. I felt alone even though there were people all around me. I felt completely misunderstood. I constantly felt betrayed. I felt awkwardly sexual. And I felt full of a slight rage I couldn’t understand. I felt I had a lot to say, with thousands of questions that no one cared to answer. I wish someone had told me that it would get easier. Everyone told me life gets tougher with responsibilities. I believe that people don’t truly remember what it was like to be a teenager. Life is more stressful now, but do people truly remember what it was like to feel as powerless as they did when they were teenagers? I remember. It’s hard not to with my journals.
I am now in my mid-twenties and going back through my life to try and learn more about myself. This book presents my journey thus far.