Somebody asked my why did you or why do you write? Well in my prologue I explained what I saw and tried to imitate because I just had to do something to make myself feel better about what I actually thought about my living circumstances and life. In childhood and in most of my life I had scars and secretes, conflicts in my relationships. I had to find a way to let my true self come out without being knocked out all the time. So while people in the house or school played or just slept I had my dreams and fantasies and desires and I just wanted to speak up and out. I use to want to be a DJ cause I loved music loved to see people dance and sing on the Ed Sullivan show. But I never got the opportunity because of my real life responsibilities.
I felt hurt and had too many secretes and not enough positive support. So Chocolate Covered Candy was a band aid to stop me from bleeding when I felt I was pouring out blood. Stopped me from being a dope fiend too I guess.
It was a life saver and companionship when I felt ostracized and nasty and alone.
It was footsteps in the sand for me to see when I was not feeling like walking in this life no more.
For you I just hope it is good and entertaining for your read not everybody knows embarrassment, poverty, molestation and childhood depression. Some people don’t even know about living single with children and addictions that come. You won’t learn it all through my words but you can become more understanding to that life after experiencing the thoughts of one of its participants. I pray.
