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Driven by charged and complex relationships, this lyrical, emotional coming-of-age YA debut follows a Chinese
American teen in the wake of her first love's death by suicide.Not real. The mantra seventeen-year-old Nina
repeats to herself the morning after her almost-boyfriend, Ethan Travvers, jumped onto the tracks in front of a
freight train. The two words that keep the truth just far enough away so the loss can't touch her, grief can't break
her. After all, there is the family image to uphold, especially when her father's startup is falling apart. Maintaining
the illusion of wholeness and success within their tight-knit California community is everything to Nina's mom
and grandma.The pretense is working-until Nina's all-star older sister, Carmen, is dismissed from college
and abruptly returns home. Carmen's arrival and strange behavior dig up buried memories, leading Nina to
wonder if there is more to the story of Ethan than even she knew. The truth is not what she wants to believe:
about Carmen, about Ethan, but mostly, about herself.Emotionally layered and unflinchingly honest, this novel
will resonate with readers who love deeply affecting stories that tackle teen heartache in the vein of Kathleen
Glasgow and Laura Nowlin.
American teen in the wake of her first love's death by suicide.Not real. The mantra seventeen-year-old Nina
repeats to herself the morning after her almost-boyfriend, Ethan Travvers, jumped onto the tracks in front of a
freight train. The two words that keep the truth just far enough away so the loss can't touch her, grief can't break
her. After all, there is the family image to uphold, especially when her father's startup is falling apart. Maintaining
the illusion of wholeness and success within their tight-knit California community is everything to Nina's mom
and grandma.The pretense is working-until Nina's all-star older sister, Carmen, is dismissed from college
and abruptly returns home. Carmen's arrival and strange behavior dig up buried memories, leading Nina to
wonder if there is more to the story of Ethan than even she knew. The truth is not what she wants to believe:
about Carmen, about Ethan, but mostly, about herself.Emotionally layered and unflinchingly honest, this novel
will resonate with readers who love deeply affecting stories that tackle teen heartache in the vein of Kathleen
Glasgow and Laura Nowlin.